Apparently, I should take fine art course. Before I come to Chelsea, even few days ago, I decided to become a curator&critic. And always tell my parents with confidence that I will help chinese contemporary art boost and give it a totally refreshing revolution...also to help my parents to expand our contemporary art center in my hometown since it has already a great foundation and social network...
Deciding come to chelsea and attend the foundation course which aims to develop mainly the drawing/designing skills, people around me all warned me to not lose my original target during this year-----
"In this year,you are just going to experience by yourself more about how artists produce their works and to have a solid practice foundation which lead you to the theoritical studies..."
"Don't turn your ambition to be an artist, haha"
My parents said this to me several times, and I always respond "Of course!!"instantly...
But,But,But,But,But,But NOW
If you ask me so, It really makes me painful to decide the answer..
What I realized recently is that When you are young, you have not too much responsibilities especially when family haven't load too much heavy hopes on you, you are really easy to be confused about the future.
The reason is that you have too many possibilities, too many chances, too many dreams (perhaps illusions)...
Should I only have one future?
Stupid question...obviously I can change at anytime...
But the thing is, while you are changing, things around you are changing too. So possibly you'll wasting loads of time and thinkings on the adaption...no,no its not the most worst result,that's---- also you'll getting tired after those all and turn your head back one day and say sadly:"If I were..."
I think I've overtalked about my thoughts of no matter...
I can't control myself...
I'm so tired to think of these boring things in the way like punish myself...Will continue later...
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