Lie down, look up

Last night, I went to bed at around 1.00 am.

Since I came here, every night once I go to bed I can close my eyes and fall asleep instantly but I didn't know why, that night, I've opened my eyes coincidently after closed them one or two seconds.

And I discovered that I can see the sky directly through my window...

The sky was not completely dark...it seems behind a kind of lense which makes the retro atmosphere...clouds are moving fast, faster than I imagined...faster than in the day...they made me think about some kind of wild animals are migrating...quickly...anxiously...but they are so quiet...they are just keeping moving...they don't talk to each others...they are running from something or looking for something...

I hope they don't know someone is hiding behind the curtains,through the window, staring their secret movement in the midnight.

Tonight I've took more than 2 hours to waiting the sky getting darker until I can see these silent clouds. And tried lots of ways to document it, but failed, photos are too ambiguous, yes, I think this is because it is sacred.

I feel so blessing, this is the most important discovering since I discovered my little night light beside the bed creates an incredible atmosphere.

Ok, task is done, I'll go to bed again~

After area talks, I feel really depressed...because it even confuses me more...It's hard to explain why, there are loads of reasons, but they can't stand in the normal sens somehow...

Apparently, I should take fine art course. Before I come to Chelsea, even few days ago, I decided to become a curator&critic. And always tell my parents with confidence that I will help chinese contemporary art boost and give it a totally refreshing revolution...also to help my parents to expand our contemporary art center in my hometown since it has already a great foundation and social network...

Deciding come to chelsea and attend the foundation course which aims to develop mainly the drawing/designing skills, people around me all warned me to not lose my original target during this year-----

"In this year,you are just going to experience by yourself more about how artists produce their works and to have a solid practice foundation which lead you to the theoritical studies..."

"Don't turn your ambition to be an artist, haha"

My parents said this to me several times, and I always respond "Of course!!"instantly...

But,But,But,But,But,But NOW

If you ask me so, It really makes me painful to decide the answer..

What I realized recently is that When you are young, you have not too much responsibilities especially when family haven't load too much heavy hopes on you, you are really easy to be confused about the future.

The reason is that you have too many possibilities, too many chances, too many dreams (perhaps illusions)...

Should I only have one future?

Stupid question...obviously I can change at anytime...

But the thing is, while you are changing, things around you are changing too. So possibly you'll wasting loads of time and thinkings on the adaption...no,no its not the most worst result,that's---- also you'll getting tired after those all and turn your head back one day and say sadly:"If I were..."

I think I've overtalked about my thoughts of no matter...

I can't control myself...

I'm so tired to think of these boring things in the way like punish myself...Will continue later...

When Night Falls, the city...

                                                            

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RIDICULOUS：No More Cric Crac

Only two days after the openning, Tate Modern forbiddened visitors to walk on the sunflower seeds of Ai Weiwei's installation work...

This is Photo is from Guardian Website

Their reason is "health fears".

Without the interaction with these sunflower seeds, there is nothing touching in this work(except astonishing by its quantity..)

I suppose Ai Weiwei himself should be sad about it.

I almost cry.

And I decided.

From today, I'll go visit every exhibition at opening days for prevent regrets.

So now we can only watch the video and imagine the feeling of touching,cracking,walking(on),tumbling(on) these lovely sunflower seeds...How sad...

Did you understand the meaning of this installation?

Well, it's not important, cuz we will probably never had the chance to understand it... 

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After view.
Perhaps I was too aggressive when I wrote these words in the previous few paragraph.
Give me some time to rethink about it...

Then, today I also took some photos that I'm really pround of.

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10.10=South Kensington Stray

Went to Ciné Lumière and watched "Les parapluies des Cherbourg".
It was the first time that I cried with my whole body since I came at London.

Exited the hall with two goldfish eyes.

Perhaps passengers in the road thought I was a girl just been dumped.

Well, it's not a good idea to go to cinema lonely.
But...I quite enjoy it. Seat in the middle of the hall and been absorbed in the large screen. And cry silently. Sing the theme song on the way home.

Quite odd but seems this process can heal me.

Then roam around  in South Kensington.

Took loads of photos.

FIN

Tues Gauguin;Last night,Vyner Street; Tonight, Saatchi

Perhaps over A.R.T.E.D?

In London, everytime&everywhere=====every exhibition...
I can't take break. I'm afraid of missing.
Maybe this passion and courage is abrading day by day,
but what I want to do now is just catch all the chances.

Really tired and want to go to sleep but I should write down sth before I forgot.

First, The myth maker--Gauguin.
God! Is that Tate Modern? Or Westfield on weekend?

It's not the worst one...

I can bearly move my step and totally lose that mood of admire those paintings describing carefree life in an Eden on the earth...
And personally, I quite unsatisfied about the curation of this exhibition... Myth maker?!...just a gimmick...
And I think the hall looks so narrow like cheap flat...
I even doubt if they have pay enough attention on the design of display...
I prefer if they can treat Gauguin more sincerely, more innocent and more natural. Don't decorate this simple man, put a title easily on his head.

Thing is, sincerely, innocent and natual doesn't mean whatever...

Neglect all these things, I was really happy to see those wood carving works of him.

Soyez mystérieuse...

How provocative and exciting!

My favorite one

+++++++++++++++I'm a separating line+++++++++++++++

Then,
Vyner street!
Went there with hard-working Yulun^v^V

(I'm so sleepy now)
Yep, when I went home from there last night, I was also exhausted.
But So many people on the narrow little rainy dark road called vyner street where hidding loads of tiny galleries and studios.

Everyone a bottle of beer.And the air was mixed with a smell of roast meat(TqT).

Most of the works on display were the students who just graduated but also there are some mature artists' works there (which I don't like so much)

Spaces are narrrrrrowwww

haha This is the real cheap flat where residented by all students with poor budget working hard to save money~

But two or three galleries are quite cute!
Clear and decent space and works displayed comfortably.
Also, atmosphere.

Most of the works are immature and didn't attracted me instantly,
but enjoy that night by seeing, exploring and discovering.

+++++++++I' m the brother of the previous line+++++++

At last...

Saatchi<<<<art of giving
Private view night

Just Recieved an email of Saatchi said there is an charity auction there and subscribed without doubt.

Everyone a glass of Champagne(I would like to try one but I was afraid if I get drunk in pulic and can't go home by myself- -'''')

Well, It's a really big auction... Loads Loads of works, all contemporary.(At Saatchi so Of Course!)

A hall full of National ***what**** what  Prize winner works.
(I don't know why I didn't pay lots of attention on them perhaps compared with the other marvelous exhibitions I just found them not strong enough)

Then some works that I found interesting...

If you look close you will discover that the artist has applied several diffrent tissues on the original drawing so Helpful to Fashion and Textile!

name is déchirer

Perfectly expressed that meaning

Also enjoyed listening to several artists' talking

But I missed the first one--

Gavin Turk's

If I met him I could talk to him about the Frieze art fair volunteer!

I was unlucky!

The soiree lasted till about 9 o'clock, I think

I step out from the gate satisfied in conclusion.

Passing by a strange boutique on the sloan street, I took some photos~

I love this series~ provocative~!

I should go to bed NOW!!!

NowNowNowWWWWW

www.gotobednowwwwwww.com???

UNDERGROUND

Discovered an amazing maze in London...
In the Station Borough, there is a secret stair which lead to the real underground world...
Keep the secret for me, please.

Entring

Sliding

Leading

Funeral Parasole

Rolling

Watching

Grilling

Freezing